saddest sadness

have you ever waited a day to come,
to fulfill an ultimate desire,
something at which you had such great expectations?
all your burdens and angers of current time
were unimportant because of the moment to come...

... and then you get a simple phone call just some
time before it should occur and you get the message
that it will not happen.
all your joy, all your hope was destroyed in just a second.
you fell into a deep dark hole,
everything seems so useless
and you think about yourself...

... and you get this impression how heartsickly
you feel about some emptiness in your life...

I currently feel this grief.

the glimpse of a smile

you don't know her that good,
and you meet her only now and then,
and whenever you look at her,
you have to confess yourself,
it feels remarkably good.

the shared look for a glimpse,
it's the new center of universe,
a short magical moment,
but being burned into mind.

as every moment fades away,
you fall back into reality.
all the magic has gone,
and you realize with a sad certainty
the famous lines of Mr. E:

"trouble with dreams is they don't come true
and when they do they can't catch up to you."

Warsaw

Last week I had the chance again to visit Warsaw. Due to my work I was able to meet my polish colleagues again... we are in contact every day by email and weekly by phone, but we meet personally just once in one or two years.



I like Warsaw, it's really a nice city with an interesting downtown and an absolute beautiful historical quarter. And I like the palace of culture and science, because it's an impressive tower and for sure one of the town's landmarks. But my polish colleagues told me, that Warsaw is not so happy with that tower as it's a symbol of the soviet repression era, they even call it a "poisoned wedding cake". Well, quite impressive for a cake...

a new start

hah.... 2 years later after my first post I'll try it again. I always wanted to have my very own blog, because everyone else has one. I'm pretty sure, I will be the only writer and reader of this space, but hey, that's ok. At least I spend my time for something more meaningful than just watching TV or having a lazy time on my couch.

I made the decision to write it in english for various reasons:
a) to improve my desastrous english
b) of course i have the hope, that some friend will read it from time to time... and many of my friends are widespreaded all over the world...

I'm not a native english speaker, so apologize my bumpy english...
from time to time I will write in german too, maybe sometimes even in portuguese... just to give my friends in brazil a laugh ;-)

and..... I will send this blog out to the world, to give myself some pressure to fill it with blah- blah and some other blah

so, let's go on, noah, keep on blogging (I hope the next post will not arrive in 2010 but somehow sooner).